可以用华文写了！！

好开心噢！！
终于可以用华文写blog了！
抱歉，我的华文不好，很多字应该会写错，如果想笑就笑吧！
我是不在意的。
更何况是你呀YQ！
如写了什么错字就要告诉我噢！
嗯。。。我不懂要写什么了。
你们应该很奇怪为什么我会突然想用华文写。。。
其实如果你是了解我的话，你应该都猜到我的企图吧！
是有关我的罗志祥噢！
猜到了吗？？
哇哈哈哈哈！！
猜不到就算了！
可是如果猜到了。。。
别说出来噢！
就当那是我们的秘密吧！！

My top 10!!!

Top 10 characteristics of my dream guy..
10..Knows how to cook
09..Speaks many languages fluently
08..creative/imaginative
07..cute in his own way
06..always be himself
05..very smart/always wanting to know more things
04..sensitive
03..funny
02..great physical appearance
01..GENTLEMEN!!!!!

**Luo Zhi Xiang has 8 out of 10. That's good enough! Considering how impossible it is to get 10 out of 10. He got all top 8 and lacks only number 9 and 10**

Top 10 physical appearance
10..hopefully no piercings
09..nice hands (as in clean and short fingernails)
08..acne free skin (almost)
07..has great smile/nice teeth
06..tanned skin
05..tall (178-185cm)
04..curly hair
03..nice toned muscles
02..deep eyes/nice eyes
01..NICE LIPS!!!! ........super important!!

**Luo Zhi Xiang has again 8 out of 10. Which again is really good considering it's impossible to get 10 out of 10. He lacks only number 4 and 10. But he looks great in his piercings...**

long time no type...

So many things happened during these past few weeks. I didn't post any of my thoughts about them after they happened for a few reasons...the first and most obvious reason was because I was really lazy. Secondly, because I didn't remember to write it here. And lastly, because I was fairly busy. Let me see...the few things that is worth talking about are:
1..I won the public speaking competition!! Yay me!! I would be a little more excited about this if I didn't know that after I win, I have to represent the school to district level. WHAT?? I know I don't say this a lot, mostly never, but I really have no confidence in this. I need uncle Stan!! And I mean, really need him. I need some motivation...like fore say...Luo Zhi Xiang as the champion's prize??
2..Hmm...if you have read number 1, you probably know that I'm back on the Luo Zhi Xiang crazy train. I'm not sure whether this should be a happy thing or a bad thing. I mean, you know how very crazy I can get. I have to focus on my studies this year!! I can't be dreaming fantasies that are obviously not going to become real. Although, there always will be a 0.01% chance that he will fall in love with me. Just think positive...right?? At least it helps me to stop looking at curly eyelash guy and motor guy. Because, they are SO not his match!!
3..I have so many homework that I should have finished before today. But like I said, I'm getting lazy again. I have stop!! I keep giving myself stupid reasons to not do it now or then or afterwards when I really should have just sat down and do it.
4..I am starting to NOT believe the things I see on TV or the internet. I tried to look for Luo Zhi Xiang's blog, but what I found wasn't really convincing. What am I going to do? And because of this whole Luo Zhi Xiang crazy thing, I'm beginning to change my mind about my future. I mean, I want to meet him don't I? Should I sacrifice my future for that 0.01% chance? Although, I really do like directing. But I guess I have to leave in to faith. If we were meant to be, we will meet no matter what. Right?? Haiz...
5..My future...what am I going to do with it? Why does people keep bursting my bubble? Can't they just give me their comments and be done with it? It IS my future, NOT theirs!!! They say don't follow your interest cause you can't make a living. But then they say, time waits for no one but money can still be earned back. IT DOESN'T MAKE SENSE!! I need uncle Stan!!!
6..I have to work on my self improvements. I'm getting fat and I look disgusting!! My freaking big nose is ruining my life!! I wonder whether I should go to Korea and get a nose job. But I'm so strict on the whole 'natural is best' thing. And I have to admit that I am scared that they will mess it up. Well, unless I find the best guy around to do it.
7..I think I'm really over Tom. I don't think about him much anymore. To me now, Luo Zhi Xiang is THE best. I love his new album!! All his songs are so meaningful!! Even though he didn't write them, the way he sings it makes me wanna drop down to my knees and cry. I mean, I totally understand what he's going through!! Oh God!! Why can't he just pick me and be done with it??!! We are obviously meant for each other!!

falling apart...

My world is officially falling apart. I don't know what I want anymore. I'm becoming more and more greedy, more and more unreliable. I don't think I can even trust myself anymore. Everything is spinning around and around....Homework is piling up and up...my heart and my feelings are confused and I'm really messed up. I really need a big bear hug. But those that mean I'm willing to give that hug to just anyone now?? Jia Quan is now...well, I wouldn't say a big problem but a problem indeed. I've been thinking...I know I haven't totally let go of Tom yet but I'm totally ready to accept another person. Is that person Jia Quan?? I'm not sure. Perhaps it's just a for now thing. You know how I am...I'm always changing my mind. And because of this, I know I can't just accept him for now and just dump him like that once I find someone else. I wouldn't want anyone to treat me that way. But he's just so convincing. But honestly...I'm not that natural around him...or should I say when I'm texting him. He's not smart, has no confidence, isn't handsome, keep pressuring me and doesn't know how to cook. Oh, and need I say that his English is just...bad!! There are a few similarities we have. But is that enough?? He hasn't texted me today. Hmmm....I kinda miss him. Or am I just feeling this way because we've been texting for so long. Although, lately I have constantly been looking for topics for us to talk about. You just get lost after awhile. I've been thinking really hard. Maybe I should wait and see how I do with either curly eyelash guy or motor guy. And also see how we really feel about each other when we ACTUALLY meet on Friday.