long time no type...

So many things happened during these past few weeks. I didn't post any of my thoughts about them after they happened for a few reasons...the first and most obvious reason was because I was really lazy. Secondly, because I didn't remember to write it here. And lastly, because I was fairly busy. Let me see...the few things that is worth talking about are:
1..I won the public speaking competition!! Yay me!! I would be a little more excited about this if I didn't know that after I win, I have to represent the school to district level. WHAT?? I know I don't say this a lot, mostly never, but I really have no confidence in this. I need uncle Stan!! And I mean, really need him. I need some motivation...like fore say...Luo Zhi Xiang as the champion's prize??
2..Hmm...if you have read number 1, you probably know that I'm back on the Luo Zhi Xiang crazy train. I'm not sure whether this should be a happy thing or a bad thing. I mean, you know how very crazy I can get. I have to focus on my studies this year!! I can't be dreaming fantasies that are obviously not going to become real. Although, there always will be a 0.01% chance that he will fall in love with me. Just think positive...right?? At least it helps me to stop looking at curly eyelash guy and motor guy. Because, they are SO not his match!!
3..I have so many homework that I should have finished before today. But like I said, I'm getting lazy again. I have stop!! I keep giving myself stupid reasons to not do it now or then or afterwards when I really should have just sat down and do it.
4..I am starting to NOT believe the things I see on TV or the internet. I tried to look for Luo Zhi Xiang's blog, but what I found wasn't really convincing. What am I going to do? And because of this whole Luo Zhi Xiang crazy thing, I'm beginning to change my mind about my future. I mean, I want to meet him don't I? Should I sacrifice my future for that 0.01% chance? Although, I really do like directing. But I guess I have to leave in to faith. If we were meant to be, we will meet no matter what. Right?? Haiz...
5..My future...what am I going to do with it? Why does people keep bursting my bubble? Can't they just give me their comments and be done with it? It IS my future, NOT theirs!!! They say don't follow your interest cause you can't make a living. But then they say, time waits for no one but money can still be earned back. IT DOESN'T MAKE SENSE!! I need uncle Stan!!!
6..I have to work on my self improvements. I'm getting fat and I look disgusting!! My freaking big nose is ruining my life!! I wonder whether I should go to Korea and get a nose job. But I'm so strict on the whole 'natural is best' thing. And I have to admit that I am scared that they will mess it up. Well, unless I find the best guy around to do it.
7..I think I'm really over Tom. I don't think about him much anymore. To me now, Luo Zhi Xiang is THE best. I love his new album!! All his songs are so meaningful!! Even though he didn't write them, the way he sings it makes me wanna drop down to my knees and cry. I mean, I totally understand what he's going through!! Oh God!! Why can't he just pick me and be done with it??!! We are obviously meant for each other!!