sigh**

Oh my god. I hate crying. My eyes get all puffy and small and weird after crying. Why do people cry anyway. I try so hard to keep from crying in front of my cousin and in the car with my dad. But once the door to my room is tightly shut...the tears just comes spilling out. If your wondering why, well I can tell you it's just the same old thing. But I usually don't cry about it. I just pretend nothing happen. But I don't know what's wrong with me today. It seemed like my day was at least better than my friend's, but I guess I was wrong.
Anyway, it's kind of a long story. It's about my mom and dad. Yup, he's back. I'm kind of torn in between now. A part of me want my dad to go back now and everything would go back to normal. But the other part of me wants him to stay a little longer. Since I don't know when I'll be able to see him again. Hmmm...I don't really want to say what happened just in case I'll cry again. But I'll say a few things though.
When I came back, I asked my mom whether she'd eaten dinner or not. She replied: "What if I haven't?"....I said: "Well, then you should eat something." My point is, why did she say that?? I mean, I was just wondering whether she'd eaten anything and what? She thinks I mean to say something else? Does she not get me at all? And ever since my dad's back she's been treating me like I'm on his team or something. And it's only to me. I know she thinks I get all of it but I still have feelings. I don't blame her or anything but she has to think of SOMEONE ELSE once in awhile.
If they (I mostly mean she) just stop hating each other and look closely, they would see that they're more a like than they think. I can't really remember what it is they share but it's there. But then again, maybe everything's not what it seems. Maybe it's not as easy as I think. I regret so much right now for being the more understanding one. If I didn't know that much, maybe I wouldn't feel like this every time this happens.