Still friends??

You still look at me with those eyes...
We still want each other's photos in your life...
We try to accept what we are becoming...
We try to leave the best for last....
And not leave it as a distant memory...
It has already been 15 years we've been friends. When we were 8, Tom and his family moved back to England. Sure they come back every year but....everything has change. Our friendship, our lives, our feelings...they've all change. Tom's got a seemingly better life there and I have always try my hardest to make him remember what's it like here. And as the years passed, he has his own friends he doesn't want to leave behind. I'm not yet a memory. Though I will be. I don't blame him. This place has its best times and its bad times. Some times he brings his friends along when he comes back with his family. And I always try to find a place in his new life. The old feelings do come back sometimes. And yet sometimes you just got to accept that everything is changing.He's not coming back next year. I try to think on the bright side but......I will miss him. I might not see him again. Especially, when we both go our separate ways to college. We might be united someday. But I doubt it would be soon. Is it easier to just let it go and move on?? It is actually, but to find the will to let go is pretty hard. I'm not sure how he feels about this, but I'm pretty sure he also has some things he's dieing to say to me, as I to him. But in the end, didn't say a word because it might make things harder. I'm not sure how we'll be in the future, but if I know us well enough, our connection will still be there. I mean, he might be my soul mate for all I know. I don't really anticipate anything to happen but....just please please please don't make me a memory. I still want a place in his heart. Even if it means we're not close, not together, not really friends.